I’m Going Sober!

Like most people, I've known addicts all my life. I've seen how drugs and alcohol have both ruined and ended the lives of people I love. Some decided to take their own lives, others accidently OD-ed never to wake up in the morning, more than one now lives with irreversable brain damage. All cases equally …

Fear: My Gift

My story, my power, my gift is that I understand the depths of fear. I understand the feeling of being scared and that allows me the gift to empathise with others. I have experienced what it is like to be fearful of external situations and circumstances, I understand what it is like when everything seems …

Trying To Move Forward With No Direction Is Tough!

So, I was just attempting my new daily 10 minute mindfulness exercise and today, more than usual, my mind was plain blank refusing to shut off. What came up for me was that in my most-recent attempt to overcome this damned anxiety, to get out of this non-existence I seem to be living in, to …

Hospital Wards… Ponderings From the Bedside

Hospital wards: A funny place to be Look around and there’s lots to see But looking beyond the surface and it’s clear to me The over-riding energy in here, is uncertainty A man so healthy and yet now so vulnerable The life he has led until now, glaringly unrefundable Questions run deep Straight from the …

Behind The Smile

I have just booked tickets for a gig on the 13th of October. Then another on the 14th of October.

So this is my run-down of going to events like this...

Attention and Obsession

So a post of mine on Facebook went viral a couple of days ago, it ended up with over 20k shares. I saw a picture with a political message on Instagram and I shared it on to my Facebook, when the post reached around 1.5k shares I went back to the original post on Instagram …

So. I Went and Got a Job. FUCK!

So... I was made redundant and haven't worked for 14 months, but, I just got a job. Yay! Amazing news! Well done me! I should be so proud... So why is it that all I can think is FUCK FUCK FUCK?! You see, I'm the one who wanted a job, prayed for one, wished for …

A Letter From the Heart To a Dear Friend

There is something I would like to share with you. But first I would like to say… I have been thinking A LOT today about you, about me, about people, about life, about all the fucking issues that people have (because that's what they are - "FUCKING ISSUES"). I have been wondering why some people …

Little Miss Unreliable

Yep, that’s me today… sigh… The thing with living with an anxiety disorder, I have found, is that sometimes it is there and sometimes it is not. Sometimes I am ‘me’ and sometimes I am not. Anxiety has affected my life in many ways, but one of the biggest challenges I am currently facing is …

Who Am I?

So... Who Am I? Ahh, the one question I imagine I will be trying to answer until my dying day. But for now, I will try to answer it as best I can so that you, the lovely reader, has an idea of the person who will be periodically controlling the voice inside your head with my random words of …